wow. sio, didn't know that happened to you. i really have nothing to respond to that with. keep it up. show your girls the love you had for your wife. i can't call you heartless. heartbroken. however, it's not healthy for you to live in the past (if you do indeed do that). what you need is to get out sometimes. not to see people per say, but to just get out of your daily routine. the years will go by much too quickly if you don't.

keep it up. : )